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January 22nd, 2007
07:05 pm
well exams..i dont think ive doen overly well but i have very much enjoyed the half days and lie ins! oh and no classes! spanish oral tomorrow..if i dont do well im dead. but aw well its only the mocks as the other half might say!
goign away to manchester with netball on thursday and im so excited!! shopping+netball+manchester+friends= fantastic!
however i was meant to be goign to get coffee with chris on wednesday seeing as i will be going away and wont get to hang out with him before hand , but he just told me he had rugby practice... i understand its important he goes cause its near the cup matches and things but i was quite excited about it cause i cant remember the last time i went for coffee with him and it was just us:( but what can you do? well what i done was ask my next favourite person to go, ashilay:) definition of a best friend and all that! shes always there to fix things.
i will miss chris though.i always do.
well thats me for now
tootles people! xxx
Current Mood:  okay
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December 28th, 2006
12:17 am - hola!
well..lets see, christmas was goood i guess!was at uncles house for xmas day...not so fun.
then yesterday stayed over at chris's house:D my dad even let me:O we had dinner(i choked and made a funny noise!though i think only chris heard...) heard some stories of him as a baby then we went upstairs,i did try to help him build that benchy thing but wel...im useless.no wonder men do it all the time. im useless at building things! so some time 5 mins into this i went and played sonic with kelly(his bros gf) while his brother did the manly job of helping,i want an xbox 360 now! then went watched tokyo drift,talked some,hid under the duvet for a while,eh acted like bf's and gf's do then went to sleep:) well tried!twas all good and a very very enjoyable night!!then woke up got changed while he was at rugby then made necklaces with carl and chloe,who knew dora the explorer beads could be so fun with litte people?lol
i love my bf:)
then went to shoppign centre then up to kyles to listen to greg go on bout yet more faults of mine.i really do wonder why i ever try to be nice to him.apparantly im a bad person now fo looking after my friends when im drunk.didnt see him trying to help. but aw well soem peopel are just dicks at times:)
anyways
i <3 my boyfriend and hes the bestest:D:D:D
Current Mood:  content
Current Music: nickle back
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December 19th, 2006
08:34 pm - f**k
well this weekend was just great...well everything part from sat night was i guess.everythign was going great but then,once again, i opened my mouth and ruined everything!im not goign to say cus it makes me feel like crap even thinking about it.but it ended up me and chris fallign out on sat night,him sayign he doesnt believe me anymore when i say i love him,losing his trust even thouh he claims that isnt true.all of it is understandable i guess.yes i shouldve told him at the time but i didnt want to ruin anythign for anyone!makes me feel like crap hearing the one person i love more than anything say they dont believe me when i say i love them or that they dont have my total trust anymore.oh and that if it hadve been anyone it wouldve been (****) and he knew somethign had happened.so ive been going out with a guy for a year and nearly two months that doesnt trust me, fair enough he had no reason i guess but i would like to point out.HE FUCKING KISSED ME!i didnt kiss him,i didnt expect it,i didnt want it to happen!if i hadve wanted to cheat i would have,properly.oh and being compared to an ex gf,also a bonus.i dont know if i can keep going out with someone who doesnt trust me anymore, and when everytime i even look at one of my best friends he gets annoyed. it is goign to be cast up all the time and i dont want that neither do i want him to think about it again.dya know what?i wish i either hadnt have said anything or just hadnt of went away all together!! to top this all off i make my bf feel like a dick.i must be the best gf in the world. i thought things had kinda got sorted but apparantly not, how the hell am i meant to know what hes thinking/ feeling if he wont talk to me bout it?if i hadve just walked out without sayign anythign on sat gods knows what might have happened with us. he was the one who wanted to talk to (****) but why didnt he?
im not goign to ruin my xmas over this and from now on im not saying a word cus all i seem to cause is greif for people, annoy them and make them feel like dicks.if thats what people think i do to them then there is no reason for meto say anythign anymore.
i dont even know what im feeling now, a mixture between hurt,guilt, anger. i duno but im sick of doing this to people and right now id rather not be with anyone.
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December 14th, 2006
09:50 pm - hi
havnt wrote in this in a while so i thought i would! was in dublin yesterday, it was so pretty! loads of nice things to buy at very not so nice prices. two days off school:) but i spent today helping my mum clean and what not. dad is finally talkign to us now!bit of a bonus there, i decided not to get my radley bag cus yea it was a waste of money(yes you were right chris!) so i got a cheaper bag that looks way more expensive than a radley bag:) an is much prettier and my mum said sh would give me then money to get the radley bag in january if i still wanted it:) so is all goooddd.
hopefully staying at kyles this saturday with chris:) thats if father lets me out, and i dont really wan tto leave becky seeing as she will only be home on friday so i shall have to see what happens.they want to go see that scary christmas film...im not so sure about it! and it adams birthday and i still ahve to get my secret santa...looks like i wont be treating myself anytime soon.ugghhh i hate christmas, it costs wayyy too much!
i get to cuddle chris this weekend, i miss it seeing as i was huffing last weekend and didnt see him much.though i needed the girly day out and sleepover, how much i love those guys there is still the fact tht they are guys.and also the fact that they are rugby crazed guys also doesnt help.i love rugby but just not 24/7. so yes,i get to see chris:D lots:D and get lots of cuddles and wake up with him:D
i havnt seen him for two days and i already miss him:(
well thats enough for one night
talk soon hopefully
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Current Location: houseeeeee
Current Music: none
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November 6th, 2006
09:25 pm - hello
well the holidays have been pretty good! started off with me and chris fallign out, but that was soon sorted and everythign is great again!:D i love him so much<3
was one whole year on thursday and we went out to dinner to an indian in bangor was soooo nice "happy birthday to me"-gotta love indian waiters. its so weird to think we have been going out for this long,seems like yesterday he asked me out.sitting in sams computer room at 8:45!(just thought id point it out that im right chris:P)kyles mum even got us a happy anniversary card!
last night stayed at ryans, was great<3 part from people fallign out,getting too drunk,smoking and pissing the bed that is!lol
i love being with chris,hes the most amazing bf ever!
only complaint for today,talked to ash and the more i do the more i realise shes starting to head in the same path as her brother and thers nothing i can do to stop it:( also went to tell her bout what i was up to seein as i havent seen her and guess what? oh chris had already told her as usual.and the more they talk the more i get annoyed.stupid, i know, but one of these days im gona crack. reading this must seem really stupid,my best friend and bf talkign, i shouldnt have a problem seeing as they are the two people i trust most,but the fact is i cant stand it,even her or him saying hi to each other makes me so angry i want to hit some one.very few people understand why im like this but its never gona change,even one yr on.yea i got him in the end,but it doesnt mean i wont forget it.
ugh i feel so stupid for saying all this but its better this than me sayign to either of their faces.
please excuse the moanign as usual!
anyways must go,homeworks becons!
xxxxxx
Current Location: houseeeeee
Current Mood:  blah
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October 12th, 2006
09:46 pm - ffs
to cut it short i hate my dad at the moment.some one like him doesnt deserve a family if this is the way he treats them.getting drunk after work,coming home at 9, screaming at us all for no reason,sayign he doesnt give a shit if i cry,slamming doors.and this isnt the first time.some dad eh? so if your dad is even a little bit nicer than this make sure you make the most of it.
one advantage,i have the best boyfriend ever and fantastic friends:D
thats my moaning done for tonight
xxxxx
Current Mood:  sad
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July 2nd, 2006
10:38 pm
well i havnt wrote in this thing in a while so i thought it was about time i started.
Went to belfast yesterday with "The crew" and ashilay though she is kinda part of it now:D its great that shes seeing lee. i get to see her so much now!:D
i have no idea what to write! ash stayed at mine on friday night and we ate ben and jerrys and talked and watched domino(im gona be a bounty hunter when im older!)
i didnt really like it much when she talked bout how chris talks to her bout me and him.actually she told me alot of things.not that i minded seeing as it was all good but still, actually some of it made me smile for a long time:D.but whats goes on between him and me is kinda not a subject i would like him to talk to my best friend about. thats actually kinda stupid to say seeing as i would most likely tell her anyways.but id rather he didnt.i dont like the thought that they talk so much, like really good friends or something...wtf am i saying this is just stupid.*slaps sef*
anyways on a more normal account, im going to donegal next week:D i love it there!! ima miss chris like loaddddddsssss but at least its only for a week. oh and its my birthday,i dont see the big deal seeing as i have to spend the day travelling but still.. i shall be 16!!. and then im going to spain! with masa who is practically family.actually she is!! we are gona have a blast! i cant wait:D:D:D
well thats a whole load of crap for you people to read.
enjoy:D
xxxxx
Current Location: house
Current Mood:  confused
Current Music: love her- seether
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May 20th, 2006
10:30 pm - jeffreys house!
last night a million people went to jeffs! was a fantastic night! well part from my buddy ash almost dying..silly girl!i was in such a good mood! but unbeknown to me my boyfriend was annoyed with me-why i am not so sure but i feel bad all the same.i hardly saw him at all!but thats just me when im drunk, i like to float about and dont really like him seeing me off my face!(though he has many a times) so everyone rachel is on a new diet.no alcohol *gasps* because its a scary substance and thanks to it i am now grounded for two fecking weeks. two weeks!!!!! ive never been grounded before! what on earth am i going to do?? no chris,ash,sarah,sam,anyone for two weekends!! grrrrrr!
must be off
will write soon
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
p.s. see i finally wrote in this stoopid thing!:D
oh and get well soon sam! have missed you lots!*mwah*
Current Location: my house:D
Current Mood:  bored
Current Music: nothing
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March 29th, 2006
09:36 pm - hello
well today was an alright day i guess! had a few good laughs!
(especially ash taking my guitar pic outa my mouth..with her mouth lmao!!).had my guiatr lesson, i am gradually improving and i will hopefully get to try and learn to play summer of 69 and sweet home alabama next week/:D two of my fav songs!
tully and some other ginger were fighting- also kinda amusing.
all day though i got the feeling sam was annoyed at me like most days.i asked her bout it and she kept saying nothing was wrong then she barely talks to me.i dont think there is but still...im paranoid!!
aw well nothing i can do bout it.
rugby match tomorrow! cant wait,its been asges since ive been to see a match and its at ravenhill!!:)
i would sooo love to get drunk right now, im in the real mood to! or a can of coke would do.
well i must go finish this stupid homework
later
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Current Music: ride wit me- nelly
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March 28th, 2006
07:36 pm - today
quick review of the weekend,sam stayed over on friday night and had a great laugh! saturday, we went to get mothers day pressies and then met jeff..who happened to be with chris and all.he didnt look very pleased as you would imagine. then we went back to sams house and hung out for a wile.then chris and ryan came to get me in the pouring rain and they were soaking wet! and i went to ryans for a wile then ryan and chris walked me home.they stayed in sams with us for a wile messing bout.ordered food then went to sleep.i was so annoyed though cus i only got to see chris for 2hrs max!! grrrrrr.....
sunday i did nothing waas on the fone to chris later etc..
Today however wasnt a bad day! got the day off due to the "bus strike" so i got up early and went to chris's.i was so scared his mum wouldnt like me! it was great cus its the first time in ages i got to spend any proper time alone with him:) then ryan came up and chris's mum asked us to help out with some church thingy with lots of wee kids.lmao i will never forget his face when she asked.. so we went up, me sitting beside his nephew and niece in the car.they are the coolest wee kids i have ever met!they were so nice! we played games with all those scary ballybean kids...and kieran..god that child was messed up, then went home.all in all it wasnt too bad and actually kinda fun! then chris's mum left us home. and apparantly she likes me:)
thats all for now im waayyy too tired! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Current Mood: content
Current Music: some random crap
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