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January 22nd, 2007

07:05 pm well exams..i dont think ive doen overly well but i have very much enjoyed the half days and lie ins! oh and no classes! spanish oral tomorrow..if i dont do well im dead. but aw well its only the mocks as the other half might say! goign away to manchester with netball on thursday and im so excited!! shopping+netball+manchester+friends= fantastic! however i was meant to be goign to get coffee with chris on wednesday seeing as i will be going away and wont get to hang out with him before hand , but he just told me he had rugby practice... i understand its important he goes cause its near the cup matches and things but i was quite excited about it cause i cant remember the last time i went for coffee with him and it was just us:( but what can you do? well what i done was ask my next favourite person to go, ashilay:) definition of a best friend and all that! shes always there to fix things. i will miss chris though.i always do. well thats me for now tootles people! xxx Current Mood: okay

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December 28th, 2006

12:17 am - hola! well..lets see, christmas was goood i guess!was at uncles house for xmas day...not so fun. then yesterday stayed over at chris's house:D my dad even let me:O we had dinner(i choked and made a funny noise!though i think only chris heard...) heard some stories of him as a baby then we went upstairs,i did try to help him build that benchy thing but wel...im useless.no wonder men do it all the time. im useless at building things! so some time 5 mins into this i went and played sonic with kelly(his bros gf) while his brother did the manly job of helping,i want an xbox 360 now! then went watched tokyo drift,talked some,hid under the duvet for a while,eh acted like bf's and gf's do then went to sleep:) well tried!twas all good and a very very enjoyable night!!then woke up got changed while he was at rugby then made necklaces with carl and chloe,who knew dora the explorer beads could be so fun with litte people?lol i love my bf:) then went to shoppign centre then up to kyles to listen to greg go on bout yet more faults of mine.i really do wonder why i ever try to be nice to him.apparantly im a bad person now fo looking after my friends when im drunk.didnt see him trying to help. but aw well soem peopel are just dicks at times:) anyways i <3 my boyfriend and hes the bestest:D:D:D Current Mood: content Current Music: nickle back

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December 19th, 2006

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December 14th, 2006

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November 6th, 2006

09:25 pm - hello well the holidays have been pretty good! started off with me and chris fallign out, but that was soon sorted and everythign is great again!:D i love him so much<3 was one whole year on thursday and we went out to dinner to an indian in bangor was soooo nice "happy birthday to me"-gotta love indian waiters. its so weird to think we have been going out for this long,seems like yesterday he asked me out.sitting in sams computer room at 8:45!(just thought id point it out that im right chris:P)kyles mum even got us a happy anniversary card! last night stayed at ryans, was great<3 part from people fallign out,getting too drunk,smoking and pissing the bed that is!lol i love being with chris,hes the most amazing bf ever! only complaint for today,talked to ash and the more i do the more i realise shes starting to head in the same path as her brother and thers nothing i can do to stop it:( also went to tell her bout what i was up to seein as i havent seen her and guess what? oh chris had already told her as usual.and the more they talk the more i get annoyed.stupid, i know, but one of these days im gona crack. reading this must seem really stupid,my best friend and bf talkign, i shouldnt have a problem seeing as they are the two people i trust most,but the fact is i cant stand it,even her or him saying hi to each other makes me so angry i want to hit some one.very few people understand why im like this but its never gona change,even one yr on.yea i got him in the end,but it doesnt mean i wont forget it. ugh i feel so stupid for saying all this but its better this than me sayign to either of their faces. please excuse the moanign as usual! anyways must go,homeworks becons! xxxxxx Current Location: houseeeeee Current Mood: blah

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October 12th, 2006

09:46 pm - ffs to cut it short i hate my dad at the moment.some one like him doesnt deserve a family if this is the way he treats them.getting drunk after work,coming home at 9, screaming at us all for no reason,sayign he doesnt give a shit if i cry,slamming doors.and this isnt the first time.some dad eh? so if your dad is even a little bit nicer than this make sure you make the most of it. one advantage,i have the best boyfriend ever and fantastic friends:D thats my moaning done for tonight xxxxx Current Mood: sad

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July 2nd, 2006

10:38 pm well i havnt wrote in this thing in a while so i thought it was about time i started. Went to belfast yesterday with "The crew" and ashilay though she is kinda part of it now:D its great that shes seeing lee. i get to see her so much now!:D i have no idea what to write! ash stayed at mine on friday night and we ate ben and jerrys and talked and watched domino(im gona be a bounty hunter when im older!) i didnt really like it much when she talked bout how chris talks to her bout me and him.actually she told me alot of things.not that i minded seeing as it was all good but still, actually some of it made me smile for a long time:D.but whats goes on between him and me is kinda not a subject i would like him to talk to my best friend about. thats actually kinda stupid to say seeing as i would most likely tell her anyways.but id rather he didnt.i dont like the thought that they talk so much, like really good friends or something...wtf am i saying this is just stupid.*slaps sef* anyways on a more normal account, im going to donegal next week:D i love it there!! ima miss chris like loaddddddsssss but at least its only for a week. oh and its my birthday,i dont see the big deal seeing as i have to spend the day travelling but still.. i shall be 16!!. and then im going to spain! with masa who is practically family.actually she is!! we are gona have a blast! i cant wait:D:D:D well thats a whole load of crap for you people to read. enjoy:D xxxxx Current Location: house Current Mood: confused Current Music: love her- seether

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May 20th, 2006

10:30 pm - jeffreys house! last night a million people went to jeffs! was a fantastic night! well part from my buddy ash almost dying..silly girl!i was in such a good mood! but unbeknown to me my boyfriend was annoyed with me-why i am not so sure but i feel bad all the same.i hardly saw him at all!but thats just me when im drunk, i like to float about and dont really like him seeing me off my face!(though he has many a times) so everyone rachel is on a new diet.no alcohol *gasps* because its a scary substance and thanks to it i am now grounded for two fecking weeks. two weeks!!!!! ive never been grounded before! what on earth am i going to do?? no chris,ash,sarah,sam,anyone for two weekends!! grrrrrr! must be off will write soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx p.s. see i finally wrote in this stoopid thing!:D oh and get well soon sam! have missed you lots!*mwah* Current Location: my house:D Current Mood: bored Current Music: nothing

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March 29th, 2006

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March 28th, 2006

07:36 pm - today quick review of the weekend,sam stayed over on friday night and had a great laugh! saturday, we went to get mothers day pressies and then met jeff..who happened to be with chris and all.he didnt look very pleased as you would imagine. then we went back to sams house and hung out for a wile.then chris and ryan came to get me in the pouring rain and they were soaking wet! and i went to ryans for a wile then ryan and chris walked me home.they stayed in sams with us for a wile messing bout.ordered food then went to sleep.i was so annoyed though cus i only got to see chris for 2hrs max!! grrrrrr..... sunday i did nothing waas on the fone to chris later etc.. Today however wasnt a bad day! got the day off due to the "bus strike" so i got up early and went to chris's.i was so scared his mum wouldnt like me! it was great cus its the first time in ages i got to spend any proper time alone with him:) then ryan came up and chris's mum asked us to help out with some church thingy with lots of wee kids.lmao i will never forget his face when she asked.. so we went up, me sitting beside his nephew and niece in the car.they are the coolest wee kids i have ever met!they were so nice! we played games with all those scary ballybean kids...and kieran..god that child was messed up, then went home.all in all it wasnt too bad and actually kinda fun! then chris's mum left us home. and apparantly she likes me:) thats all for now im waayyy too tired! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: content Current Music: some random crap

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March 20th, 2006

07:18 pm - the weekend and today FRIDAY went to lunch with becky,mum and auntie,it was soooo nice!then took really ill and came home to watch the schools cup rugby thingy.stayed in all night and felt sorry for myself SATURDAY sat round the house,still ill,and then got ready and went to the bar to watch the ireland-england match with the father,sister etc.best laugh i have had with family in ages!!and my dad bought me a few drinks:S. then coming out i foned/txted everyone who i could think of that might have been with chris to see what he was doing.with no luck.so me being me,thought fuck them and went to mcgivs.i think my mum was scared of me i was that annoyed lol.was with them for ages hanging out and all with ash and sarah then my mum picked me and ash up to go home.chris txted me and i was kinnndaaa cheeky cus i was tired,lonely, and ill.not one of my better ideas!me and ash went for a walk with toby and had a good long chat wich we havnt done in ages!was so good to catch up! im so happy her and dan are going out,i havnt seen her this happy in so long,shes her old self again.the one that doesnt scare me!!i really hope ti lasts with them.On my way home i foned chris just to see if everything was ok and he wasnt annoyed at me , oh and because i was terrified cus i was being followed!!i was alot happier once i did that,i didnt realise how much i missed him. SUNDAY lay in bed and played the xbox like some big geek.later on that night was on the fone to chris for agggeessss.we talk far too much crap!!not that that is a bad thing,i dont know how he puts up with me! *sam also said how i dont bother with her anymore and that she thinks i dont care botu her and all.i have no idea how she got that idea but it finally made sense why she was beign so weird with me.but could some one please tell me how i am meant to know what i have done wrong without being told??i might fone her later and see whats up cause its really getting to me and i miss my buddy!!i read her lj aswell and apparantly there was some thing on my lj that i didnt tell her or something but i could write it down for everyone else to read:S yet again,how am i meant to know?i wish she would just talk to me again!!hopefully she is staying at mine on fri night so we can sort things out then. *this weekend i am determined to spend every single minute with chris no matter what!!either that or i go crazy! i think this is called obsession lol *today i came in fake tanned...note to self-never do that again!! though i suppose it could turn out worse, and i did get more compliments than insults/jokes. thats all i can think of for now and i hope none of this offends anyone and if so would they please please please tell me!!! bye bye xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: none

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March 7th, 2006

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February 22nd, 2006

06:04 pm - life i guess well its been ages since ive updated cause frankly i have no reason to update.just back from half term.was at my cousins 18th onfriday night-sooo good!!i had my first proper drink in ages and my mum bought me them!?! then on sat met up with chris etc,sunday lazed round the house and monday was out with mcgiv and dan for the first time in ages.i really miss them guys,it was just like the old times,just the three of us hanging out and having a laugh.must do it again some time even though it doesnt look too good just me and them.then i stayed at "sams" again aka ryans.was sooooo much fun!! even though i did fall asleep quite a few times.hanging out wwith them is just like hanging out with any of my girl mates now!the highlight of my night was either getting locked in the bathroom(cus i wud never do that....:P) or getting to wake them all up especially chris.they are soo cute when they are asleep lmao! i felt really bad or something cus he said how he thought that i was like too good for him and that other guys like me and that apparantly hes not as good as them?!?! i swear hes on drugs some times...cause if that was all true why would i be with him then?out of all of these so called guys that i could have?cause hes a million times better than the rest of the guys in our year put together!!guys...honestly. Oh and some one has told jeff that i slept with chris and he told craig who told sarah.that was a hard one to get out of!!! samantha came back today,expecting to get her vday pressie but paul was off lol!!! well thats all for now au revoir! xxxxxx Current Mood: blah Current Music: seether- burrito

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February 9th, 2006

08:35 pm - no match!! well today was a bit of a gay,was actually looking forward a little bit to our match but oh no it had to go and be cancelled!!damn them...so instead of going to practice with the 500 other ppl i sat on the stairs eating oranges with bex,jude sarah and sam.was so funny,i have never been asked so many questions in my life! especially from judith."i heard you fucked him,he told me,was it good?did u enjoy it?what was it like?"...etc was hilarious. then me and sam went for a walk and it was the first time we have actually got to talk bout sat night.was kinda awkward on my account but i think she was just worried. its been two days since ive got to kiss chris. TWO DAYS!! this is evil i tell you,some one defo has it in for me this week! when i came home i read his live journal and i felt sooooo bad,he was saying how he thought that i was being kinda distant and that he thought id rather be with someone else etc these last few days.i have no idea how he got that impression but he shouldnt have!!he knows that there is no one id rather be with,no one i could be with frankly.its unreal how much i love him and any minute im not with him its hell!!i hope he doesnt carry on thinking like that for much longer,i shall just have to be alot nicer from now on:D right now i am sitting here waiting for my uncle to leave so i can have dinner and waiting to hear from my mum with news on my gran who has been taking into hospital:( will write soon xxxxxxx Current Mood: anxious Current Music: none

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February 6th, 2006

08:47 pm - school well to catch up on last night.i told sam bout what happened on sat night with me and chris.bad bad bad idea!i sholuld never have said anything.she went off on one again like big time and was crying and all.i was practically in tears myself.she is meant to be my best mate,i know she was just concerned and all but there was no need for all of that.i mean even ash was ok bout it and alot more calm than what sam was and me and ash havnt exactly been the best of friends lately.she made me almost regret it which i didnt want to happen and now in scholl she wont even look me in the eye or anything!!grrrrrrrrrr!! friends!!! it better get better tomorrow if not i dont know what i will do.she has dissappointed me big time but then again i guess ive done the same to her.. was kinda ill today and had to come home at lunch,dad wasnt happy as always i swear i could kill him one of these days! i cant eat or drink anything but water without feeling like crap.i probably have the plague or something must go now xxxxxx Current Mood: sick Current Music: none

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February 5th, 2006

09:11 pm - last night well last night was..eventful!went to gregs at like 7.30 and watched a few movies and all.was a bit annoyed cus sarah as always never tells u she cant go to places. but then later in the night me and chris went to gregs room and well..carryed out the plan for the night;) was so good! was not good at the start i will admit that but was really good afterwards. was so annoyed though cus i had to go home and everyone was staying but hey what can ya do!?! there was so much drink it was unreal!!!maybe its a good thing i didnt stay.. greg was really nice to me the whole night so from now on i WILL be nice to him, hes not actually that bad. i told ash today what had happened last night,shes the only one that knows.but she took it pretty good and was just concernd bout me.really miss talking to her as much as i used to. havent really much more to say cus my mind is kinda blank. shall write more later xxxxxxx Current Mood: blank Current Music: now you know - hilary duff

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February 3rd, 2006

06:27 pm - life well its been ages since ive wrote in this so i thought it was bout time. i think i am officially the dumbest person i know especially in maths.i came off with a great one today ...question= 3.1x10"miss i dont understand the question" not that chris would ever make fun of me cus of it lmao!!!!though it was pretty dumb im going to dans soon and i really dont want to go!i love them guys and all but theyre just not....chris. and no doubt i will go tonight and my dad wont allow me out tomorrow night for gregs which i HAVE to go to no matter what!!jude and bex arent staying now though:( and im not sure that i want to stay with all them guys(who i dont mind) and then some other random girls i dont know(which kinda bothers me) but i shall see what happens.sam told paul she loves him:D she finally did it!!im sop happy for both of them. yesterday was a half day and we went back to jontys.was so funny even though i did get partially stripped-no guesses who that was by lol.not that i minded or anything cus i got to do the same to him:P i really cant wait for gregs...i think. really dont want to go tonight-its just me dan sam and paul which doesnt exactly look very good but i told paul and sam they were not to fuck off(literally) and leave me with dan.the only reason im going is ro shut him up for going on bout how i never spend time with them and that i just "do whatever ever he says as if he owns me" oh and because if i dont go either will sam and thats really not fair.i just want to fone them up and say im going with chris n all instead.id have a much better time and all im doing with them is watching movies and stuff.and mcgiv isnt even there to keep me company when dan decides to be a bit of a gay!!! grrrrrrr im so pissed off!! must go get ready now for a night of "fun" bye bye xxxxxxx Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: none

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January 15th, 2006

08:05 pm - the weekend this weekend was actually really fun! stayed at sams on friday night and just chilled out the whole time with the guitars and good old msn!we talked wayyyyy too much, then in the morning i aparantly woke up and hit sams bed and was tlaking to her...i dont rememebr any of it!!i think i have actually started to go crazy! we went into ards at bout 2 and met chris lee and kyle because dan and mcgiv got the bus after us so they didnt have to be with the others:S that was pretty gay.it was such a luagh dragging them into all the shops we wanted!and lee was actually dead on for once? then we got the bus back to ards and went home.i think i annoyed chris bout taking my fone off him wen he went to read my msgs,must talk to him about it cus i would be annoyed if i was him.sarah was really upset,i hope shes ok! then today i just stayed in and got some stuff ready for going away on wednesday, im really not looking forward to it cus i wwont get to see chris for 3 days :( i miss him even if im away from him for an hour so god knows what i'll be like for 3 days!! i will definately have to meet up wth him as soon as i get back. found out today that im getting my bridesmaid dress on the 11th of feb,cant wait!!though i hope i dont have to wear pink or im not going... i had a really scary dream last night were i woke up crying,chris had cheated on me with ash and said that he had always liked her.probably the worst dream i have ever had.it was the most crushing thing i have ever experienced even though it was only a dream.sam thinks its my biggest fear and i think i will have to agree with her for once. must go now xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: blah Current Music: coheed as usual

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January 12th, 2006

09:30 pm - my life the past two days or so well let me see what happened thses last couple of days....oh yes well on tuesday i thought "hey why not be a good suppoter of the rugby team and go and watch seeing as we are allowed" but as soon as me and 22 others got on the pitch out storms mrs hiles who yells at us and makes us go to the gym.then to top it all off she reports us to the headmaster!!and i only got to watch like 15 mins of it.really good match and i missed it.:( i hate that woman. chris was a bit annoyed bout the match cus of him coming off and stuarty going on and scoring two tries.dont blame him,i would be annoyed if i was him.but hopefully it wont happen again*fingers crossed* :) yesterday was pretty boring though i did get to see chris quite alot for once:) and the last two episodes of lost were on.god im going to miss it.also ash came down to mine to watch some of the lost she missed then she went home and we met up a wile later and walked round ddee talking bout everything,was really good to catch up. dan asked me to go see alkaline trio in dublin on the 23rd febrary with him and mcgiv.mum said yes but havnt asked dad yet.realllllyyyy hope i can go!!it will be so good! ash wants to go but says she would be "tagging along" if she went and she cant get down so shes not going:( would have been good if she could have gone.and to have some female company aswell lol.will be the longest time ive spent alone with the two of them..should be interesting lol.will miss chris loadsssss though!hope he doesnt mind me going either cus i am going with two other guys.i know he trusts me but i would probably get annoyed if he went with two girls.but what can ya do?!?!? today was also boring,got maths test back 59% not terrible but not great.didhnt get a detention after all thanks to the guys putting up the posters!but i do have to write an apologie letter to mrs hiles gggrrrrrrrrrrr!! netball was fun today we just played some crazy form of netball. im bored now so im going will write as soon as i can be bothered xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: confused Current Music: tv

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January 9th, 2006

07:05 pm - another entry im soooo bored,mum and dad are out so i thought id sneak a few mins on the computer.im meant to be doing english but meh...i cant be bothered,i'll think of an excuse somehow.today was pretty boing,didnt see chris much at lunch or break:( but thats what u get for having a boyfriend that plays rugby i guess.speaking of rugby,the first round of the medallion sheild is tomorrow!cant wait!everyone gets out of games to go and watch which means i dont have to do football:):):) first match ive watched in a while,will definately have to stand with samantha for old times sake! well must go and watch buffy now will write soon, no doubt later on xxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: calm Current Music: coheed and cambria-the suffering

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